today i was suppose to do school work
but ended up editing my music on my comp
ended up deleting the freaking music library
luckily not off my comp
besides that i was okay
except thinking about him ><"
i missed him more that usual today
fucking just wanted to see him
but ended up not
i called like 1000000000 times
most times were no answer
or someone said he wasn't home ><"
yeah i didn't call his mobile
cause why bother when he doesn't carry it around anyways
fuck fuck fuck
i hate him but i LOVE him more
><" why must my feelings for him be so strong
well i feel like shit
and just want to cry
idk why ?!
like i'm not mad at him or anyone
and i'm not really sad
just a bit annoyed at not seeing him
i guess thats why i'm crying idk ><"
well i’ma leave it there
i miss HIM sooo much its killing me