Anyways, i just realised i didn’t write anything yesterday.Well it all started when i went to school. he was wearing mufti, funny cause we had mufti today, not y-day
i found out that he had an excursion. i gave him and A.P a hug in the morning. but i could feel that he felt uncomfortable but i let it slide. Same thing happened when i hugged him after tutor before he went to the excursion, to say goodbye i was fine that day. i just missed him a lot which kinda sucks sometimes.
that was all from yesterday.
TODAY was another story. i didn’t see him in the morning
i didn’t see him at recess
i assumed that he was absent.
Heard he wasn’t, making me sad
i thought he was avoiding me ><”
then at lunch i hung out with A.P trying not to cry
he finally came out to talk to me
but only when A.P is around.
He started talking about sex again ><”
which i know, its just him
but now i’m uncomfortable about it
cause of my belief of no sex till marriage.
A.P got mad, trying to tell him off
and like then the bell rang.
well i asked A.P to walk me to english
and we just talked
i started telling him how i felt guilty about the other day
and how i feel he is ignoring me in a way
i then started to cry
i was soo hurt that i felt i had lost everything.
well then after that i just didn’t do any work.
after school i said good bye to him like not hard out
but a little.
then i hung out with N.A
then when i was on the bus to go home, A.S points out him sitting with M.Z on the bus
i didn’t even know he went on
anyways, i don’t know if he saw me or not
but he didn’t say a word to me
or even give a wave
NO HI OR BYE
maybe i really shouldn’t have taken the risk
i miss him now
but i’m guilty of complicating his life