Wednesday, March 31, 2010

dreams

having dreams about him every night
they're not clear anymore
and i can't remember a whole lot of it
but i know i never want to wake from them
it makes me sad
cause my dreams show me happiness
while my reality is showing me hurt
well a bit of hurt
i'm mostly happy these days
thanks to his friendship and love
i love you bestfriend
<3

Rain Rain Rain

well today was different
this morning i got to school late
kinda i guess
well i didn't see him till recess
@ recess i didn't really talk to him
i just remember walking to the bathroom
and as i passed him he said hi to me
and when i heard him say my name
i turned around with a smile and waved at him
the next time i talked to him after that was at lunch
my bestfriend, A.P the girl
was telling me her score for physics
and i straight away asked what his score was
the good thing was he passed
but the bad thing was that i knew he wasn't happy with it
well she then told me he stayed back to talk to the teacher
it was just me and J.M, the girl at lunch
cause the other two had other stuff to do
well i saw him walk out of the class
and he came up to me and said he failed physics
told you he wasn't happy
well i told him at least he passed and stuff
and then we started talking about it
and his goal to beat this guy in his class
i gave him a big hug to comfort him
i was still hugging him and like holding on
but he moved away
which cut me deep
he didn't do it meanly
but i was still cut
well then yeah we talked about other stuff
then he walked off to sit with other people
i said and waved bye to him
as he walked off
and he turned and waved back too with a smile
then me and J.M, the girl
started talking about him
i was telling her how i don't like when he is disappointed and how i'm scared he'll be disappointed again on the next exam
and i was telling her how smart he is and how he is capable of a lot
but he gets upset when he doesn't reach what he is aiming for which upsets me
The next time i talked or saw him, was at the end of period 5
i was heading towards me class
and i guess i zoned off cause i didn't notice him until he called out my name again
i saw him in surprise as i didn't know he had a class in my english classroom
of course at not the same time as me
LOL
well then we started talking and he was telling me how he had english in the same class room as me
i was shocked
then i said bye to him and he walked to class
and i did too
as he walked away i realised i should of asked him how he was going home
which brings us to the next time i spoke or saw him
at the end of the day
i was thinking if i should catch bus or walk to the station
i saw him just turn a corner and make his way to the station
i then decided i would walk.
i walked at a good pace
not slow, not fast
i kept me eye on him
walking further and further away
he didn't know i was behind him
so fair enough he didn't stop
well i kept walking
and talking to myself saying how i won't make it to him
and that i'll be fine if i don't
well i finally got to the station but he was out of site
i guess he was able to catch the earlier bus
i was then sad
but oh well i got exercise
and i can see him tomorrow
but if i told him i would walk this arvo
he would of walked with me
but i didn't making it my fault
but thats fine
i'll hang with him tomorrow maybe
tomorrow is the last day of the term.
2 more terms till i finish school
can't wait
but then again still scared
i love him
and i love you guys
<3333
stay awesome
:)

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

:)

spent the day with the people i love :)
well today i got to school late
so there was no time to talk to anyone
well then i had double english
nothing special there LOL
then it was recess
:):):)
well i didn't really hug him today
but i spent lots of time with him
i spent half of lunch talking to him
mostly about big bang theory
then about umbrellas
and then about his hair again LOL
then he went and talked to B.R
and i went to sit with my group
it was then pastrol care
and i love my tutor group mainly the year 12s :)
then i had ancient history :)
well wasn't in the mood to talk
idk why but i got upset about him
like yeah
so i started writing song lyrics on a piece of paper
lyrics that related to me
after that it was lunch
i talked to him a bit
and not really
i went around asking for people's individual photos cause we got our photos today LOL
i got one off him
and i was soo happy :)
cherish it forever
LOL
well then i told him to walk with me after school
to the station like yesterday
and we did
well after school i met with him at the gate
we started walking and talking about umbrellas again LOL
he was saying how he never uses them cause he is scared he'll forget he is holding it and walk through a door but get stuck
i just kept laughing
it was so stupid
LOL
we then talked about my mum and his mum
and yeah
lol
i was telling him how i hated mine
and yeah
then we talked about after school
he is going to uni
and i'm going to college
its both in the city but i'm scared we'll separate
and he was like to me
"but remember you said we won't lose contact"
i was like yeah we won't
but he is so hard to contact i was telling him LOL
hahaha
i told him what college i'm going to
and my plan to get into uni after a year
i told him to visit me
and told him we need to hang out in the holidays
and stay in contact after school
and he said we will
i hope so
we also talked about his hair again
cause he kept trying to style and play with it
but he couldn't cause it was short LOL
it was so funny
i also told him my plan for next term
i was going to get off at the bus stop where he gets off sometimes
its the near this street i can walk down
well some times he gets off there
other times he goes further up
well anyways
i'm gonna get off that stop
and just walk home i was telling him
so that he doesn't find it random LOL
i showed him the stop before he got off anyways
but back to when we were at the station
i saw my ex from primary school while i was walking with him
i just ignored but of course he also took the same bus as me
well i just sat with him and like ignored my ex
pretending i don't remember him
when we got on the bus, me and him started talking to M.Z & L.M
well it was good :)
we got to his stop and gave me a hi five
then he got off the bus with L.M
and i was left with M.Z
i had some bad history with her
but i found out we both didn't like the same people
and had problems with some as well
i was beginning to enjoy her company
but like yeah
she is still on my bad list from when she got racist to asians
but i don't mind talking to her
well that was my day
i hope tomorrow is a great day too
:)
I LOVE HIM DEARLY MORE EVERYDAY
<3

Monday, March 29, 2010

100th post

well today was a good day :)
i hung out with him at lunch :):)
well first i saw him in the morning
funniest thing
after period one i walk out to the lockers with A.C
and like i see him and he got a hair cut :O:O
yeah i don't really like it
like its okay but not my thing :P
of course the first thing i said was
did you get a hair cut
and yeah he said yeah and i was like dude its short ><"
well yeah then i hung with him at lunch
which was cool
i talked to him
hugged him
sat with him
it was the best
i was full telling him how i liked his hair before
like a little longer
and stylish
and he was like yeah ><"
hahahah
it was funny
but oh well i'll get used to it
anyways
i asked him to walk with me after school to the station
he said yes obviously LOL
and then we just kept talking and i kept hugging him and stuff
it was really nice
then after school he had a detention for a little bit
cause he hasn't handed in his booklet for community service yet LOL
so i had to wait for him
which i didn't mind
M.C stayed with me :)
well then he came out and we started walking to the station
we asked hypothetical questions
like little situations that may happen
his replies were funny
he said he'd basically do what ever the other person did, to them LOL
i was like wtf
then we started talking about the future
and i was like to M.C that i'm godmother to one of his kids
if we don't get married ;)
and like he was like yeah :P
and i was like i'm nick naming it bubbles and everything just to piss him off
he is soo funny
hahah
then we got to the station
and he started talking to these people from school
M.C didn't want to so we walked off
but i wanted to stay
we all ended up back together LOL anyways
well i full kept saying to him when we started arguing
"you wanna argue with me"
and then he'd stop LOL
he is such a cutie
he knows i'm joking
LOL
he is such a nerd, esp. when it comes to physics LOL
then we got on the bus and i sat next to A.S and he stood up as it was full
well then i didn't get to talk to him on the bus
until he said bye
i love him soo much
i hope someday he sees me more than a best friend
SOMEDAY
my weekend was busy as guys
LOL
i went to a 18th b-day on saturday and my bestfriend's, A.P (the girl)party
i always ended up talking about him
how we're just friends
seeing how things go from there
idk
i love him lots
and yeah thats basically it
he is my number one
my top priority LOL
i love him so much :)
<3
guys this is my 100th
so like thank you to everyone who reads my blog
there is many more posts to come
but i'm soo proud to finally be up to 100 posts
we're in the 3 digits :)
i love you guys
thanks for the support :)
<3

Friday, March 26, 2010

Late posts

SORRY guys

i haven’t been writing

well i’ll fill you in what has been happening

WEDNESDAY:

was careers day

it was a day for us year 12s to figure out where we want to go after school and what we want to do

well in the morning i hugged him from behind

and then we had to sit for a meeting

i sat next to A.P the girl  and then she was basically sitting next to him

well then i didn’t see him until recess

recess; me, M.C & A.P the boy were having an arguement about what is more important, Family or Jobs

i was obviously saying families

at the end, i was talking to him tell him what was going on

and then me and M.C started arguing again

he like full slowly walked away and i found it funny LOL

Next time i saw him was at the careers market

i was going around by myself looking for like particular courses and so i went up to him when i saw him standing by himself

i jumped behind him like i always do and gave him a hug

we then talked more about what he wants to do and where he wants to go after school

then we separated and i saw him again later in the same place LOL

well i asked him if he could sit with me in the next seminar cause i thought i’d be alone and he said yes :)

well then we talked more about after school

and figured out we are going to 2 different places

and i’m scared we’ll separate and stop talking :(

well i hope not

i haven’t spoken to him yet about it

well the next seminar came and i was with him but also i found out A.G was in it too

so i felt i had to sit with her

there was seat next to him but like not enough for me and A.G

he told me to sit next to him

but i told him i had to sit next to A.G

so he let me go

and A.P the boy sat next to him instead

before the talk started he was poke me and i poked him back

friendly of course

and when the talk was over i hugged him from behind and walked with him out of the room

we talked more

and i asked him what he had to go to next

he had some science thing so like i just left him LOL

well i gave him a BIG hug saying goodbye

and headed for my next talk

i didn’t see him for the rest of the day

i don’t know how he caught bus but alright LOL

and that was my wednesday :)

THURSDAY:

He was away on this day. i didn’t know why cause he wasn’t sick the day before and i didn’t even notice he wasn’t at school till A.P the girl told me

well i got worried and started missing him heaps

well because he was away theres not much to talk about just

I MISSED HIM LOTS

<3

FRIDAY:

Today :)

well idk why there was a smiley face lol

well the night before i was talking to my bestfriend A.P, the girl

about her birthday party which is on sunday

well i was talking to her about how she didn’t invite the guys to her party

and she was like she wasn’t sure if she was allowed

i convinced her to at least invite him

but she told me that her mum said yes but i’d have to act like i was with him

like in a relationship

which wasn’t too hard

cause i was close to him anyways

well today she asked him if he could go

but at recess she told me he couldn’t cause he had flight lessons

which i was fine with cause i know how much he has been waiting for them

honestly i was sad though :(

in study which was a period before recess, i was talking to K.C about how i wanted him to go to the party cause i wanted to be able to spend a day in the weekend with him considering the fact i never really do and how i was scared we’re drift apart when school is over

well i was sad he can’t go but i’m okay with it at the same time

The gay thing about today was that i didn’t hug him or talk to him today

which made me very sad :(

because all the times i wanted to her was talking to B.R and i HATE her LOTS

but what made my day was at the end of the day when he smiled goodbye to me on his way out the gate :)

and i smiled back :)

that was basically my day with him <3

DREAMS:

for the last couple of nights i’ve been having dreams about him

yeah very corny ><”

i wrote them down so i wouldn’t forget LOL

dream 1;

I was going home from school

and i see him about to enter the school

i then give him a hug and ask him whats he doing at school

he says he’s at school for physics and so i walk him to school

it all of a sudden becomes recess or lunch and i was sitting in front of him

we’re just looking at each other and then he hugs me and i lean on him

people then start coming up to us, wondering if we’re together

and we smile and say

we’re bestfriends

and that made me happy

dream 2;

i told him to stay with me cause we were on a train or something and then at one moment i jumped to hug him from behind

and as i did this he picked me up and gave me a piggy back ride

i then got off and he asked if i wanted another one

so i jumped on his back again and he gave me another piggy back ride :)

 

I LOVE HIM VERY VERY MUCH

MORE THAN YOU KNOW

<3

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Almost 100 posts guys :)

well today was an interesting day
i didn't talk to him till recess
which was alright
and usual
i hugged him
HEAPS TODAY ACTUALLY
well umms
for this next bit i better give you background
makes it easier to understand
well all of yesterday i was getting told by like everyone in my year
that i came first in general mathematics
and also today people were telling me
then i get into class and i was first still
UNTIL
this guy in my class found a mistake and got like one or two extra marks
and i was only beating him by one mark
and now i'm 2nd ><"
that pissed me off
1. because everyone was telling me i came first
2. because is was someone who i was competing against that beat me
and 3. because i could of got 3 marks if i didn't make stupid mistakes ><"
well
after the period the whole school had assembly
i saw him
so i ran to him and hugged him
he was like" Whats wrong"
obviously shocked
and i told him how i was upset and everything
then i hugged him again and went to sit down with some of my other friends
i was full gonna cry cause of that
yeah i know
over acting but still
everyone said i was first but i wasn't
it was a lie
anyways
then came lunch
i hugged him again telling him how upset i was
and he was telling me how i still did good and stuff
and that it was nothing to worry about.
i eventually stopped i guess
still kills me
like 1 mark difference or something
come on
well then after school i saw him on the bus
but there were no seats near him
and like i had to sit somewhere are the back
well he smiled at me
i smiled back
and he waved bye to me
when he got off the bus which was good
i get jealous of this other girl
C.B
him and her have this thing where their like pretend to be together kinda
like a game thing
he is her husband kind of thing or something
yeah well
she can get his attention so easily and i can't
it hurts so much
and i get jealous
not that she likes him cause she doesn't
cause she has a boyfriend
but for the fact that i love him
but he acts like that to other girls
well thats all about today
but i got some other stuff to tell you
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i'm thinking of getting off the bus at a different bus stop and walking home
but like not sure yet
maybe when my knee is better
Also i don't know if i wrote anything about this other guy who
wrote stuff on my facebook status
well on my status i wrote "<3 Big Bang Theory, I'ma marry a physicist ;)"
and then his guy who is friends with him said
(his name here) aka him
and i was like nah i mean a real one LOL
and he said that him wants to be one
and i was like i know but he's my friend with a wink
and then he says
why do you like him or he likes you?
and i was like none, we're bestfriends
and thats how it ended
well yeah that bothered me
i then had a talk with my other bestfriend A.P the girl
and told her how much i love him
and she was like nawwwww
and yeah told me not to give up
and i won't
cause i love him lots
LOTS LOTS
<3 anyways
thats it from me for now
:)
talk soon
<3

Monday, March 22, 2010

OH MY FUCKING GOD

lets pretend my mum isn't such a bitch
OH WAIT i can't cause she is
i'm sooo fucking tired of it
so yeah i went doctor today
and then i went to get my x-ray
my mum keeps saying she knows why my knee feels like shit
and it because i need to lose weight
i am so tired of her bitchiness
well alright she isn't a complete bitch but she is bad enough
she compares me to my sister
like WTF we're 2 different people
but she always congrats her on her losing weight
and what do i get ><"
oh yeah well done louise, good job in maths ><"
man she even lets the world know
i'm not going to uni
which just pisses me off more
she acts as if she is fine with it
but nooooo
she isn't
WELL YOU KNOW WHAT MUM, FUCK YOU
THATS RIGHT, I SAID IT
i can't take her anymore
she full says "i won't say anything" but yeah sure you won't
fucking letting the whole world know i need to lose weight
well you know what
FUCK YOU
i hate her
i hate her
i hate her :@:@:@:@:@:@:@

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on a brighter note
i found out today that theres nothing wrong with my bone
i just need to wait for the blood test results to come in
my dad let me know i need to lose weight
but he says it nicely
not like my mum who makes it seem like its obvious
and that she loves me less if i might have a bit of weight
i'm not even that fat GAAAAAAAAA

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alright no more talking about that bitch
anyways
well i hung out with him today :)
it was good
i missed him
now i get to go back and hang with him at school
YAY!!!!
i might call him and like bitch to him about this
i'm so tired of my mums bullshit
and just her being so annoying
like seriously
it seems i'm not even her daughter anymore
i'm just a random teen in the house
i try my best to make her proud
but what do i get
MORE INSULTS
thats it i'm through
i swear
i am tired of trying
theres no satisfying her ><"
:@

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Soooo Creepy

My sister made me do this test thing on the net

colorgenics or something like that:

well my result was heaps creepy

here is what it said;

You are a very emotional and sensitive individual. Your life and love of life is dominated by your emotions - you have great feeling towards your fellow man and you are always full of enthusiasm but be careful, you tend to let your heart rule your head and this being so, you could be easily hurt - as perhaps you may have indeed been hurt in the past.

You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society.

You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety and you are distressed by the lack of any close and understanding relationships. You feel you are not appreciated by those who matter to you. You are attempting to escape into a world on which you can relax and feel at ease.

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Okay honestly that is mee

especially now

as i am inlove with him

this result

describes me as a person

and it scared the crap out of  me

LOL

<3 him

<3 you guys

Barely Walking

Alright, this isn’t about him but i thought i’d let you guys know

><”

well yesterday i was on the train

and as i was about to sit

a sharp pain striked my knee

but the weird thing is that nothing hit it

well now i can hardly walk

and if i put pressure on it,

it fucking kills bro

anyways now i am told by the rents

that my knee can't hold my body weight

and so now i'm gonna lose weight ><"

it's like my mum just had to find a reason to tell me

i was FAT

well yeah thats what happens

what kills more is that i have to keep drinking water even after lent

nothing else

and i can't eat any meat until they know for sure what is wrong ><"

oh how now i'm kinda annoyed

yesterday was heaps bad though

i was like full in tears

it hurt that bad

good thing my brother and his girlfriend helped me

i'm greatful

well now its getting better 

but still hurts

i'm barely walking

but its an improvement

i’m worried about going back to school on monday if the pain is still there

well i’ll have to wait and see

<3 love you guys

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Justin Bieber – Common Denominator

I’m Loving this song :) can really feel it

<3 enjoy

 

Just a fraction of your love fills the air,
And I fall in love with you all over again,
You're the light that feeds the sun in my world,
I'd face a thousand years of pain for my girl.


Out of all the things in life that I could fear,
The only thing that would hurt me is if you weren't here
Woah oh oh oh


I don't want to go back
To just take one half of the equation
Do you understand what I'm sayin'?


Girl without you I'm lost
Can't fix this compass at heart
(Between me and love)
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh


Before your love was low, playin' girls was my high
You changed the game now I put my card in the side, aye
When broken hearts rise up to say love is a lie
You and I will stand to be multipied, yeah

Out of all the things in life that I could fear, yeah
The only thing that would hurt me is if you weren't here, here, here
Yeah, Yeah


I don't want to go back
To just take one half of the equation
Do you understand what I'm sayin'? (do you understand?)


Girl without you I'm lost
Can't fix this compass at heart
(Between me and love)
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh,
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh,


I can't imagine life without your touch,
And every kiss that you give, you fill me up
And through all the heart achin'
Jealous females hatin'
Imma hold it down for you, you


Oh, whoa...
Your the common denominator,
Oh, yeah, woahh,
I don't wanna to go back,


I don't wanna go back
To take one half of the equation (half of the equation)
Do you understand what I'm sayin'? (oh, whoa)
Girl without you I'm lost
Can't fix this compass at heart
(Between me and love)
You're the common denominator (oh, oh, ohh, oh)
You're the common denominator (oh, oh, ohh, oh)


Just a fraction of your love fills the air,
And I fall in love with you all over again...

My dream

i had a dream
that i jumped behind him
to give him a hug
but then he gave me a piggy back
and he ran around the school
me still hanging from his back
and then he let me down
i hugged him from the front
and hugged for ages
and just never wanted that moment to end
<3
My bestfriend is a cutie <3

Yesterday & Today

i didn’t have time to write about yesterday, YESTERDAY

so i’ma do it today :)

well i went to school early yesterday cause i wanted to bum around until my speech time :P

Then he came to school early & so i wanted to say hi to him so i went up behind him and hugged him around his neck from behind

He was like What The Fuck LOL

and he saw me and was like “Oh hi :P”

i full laughed and went in front of him to hug him again :)

i hugged him heaps :P

ummms that was really it hahahaha

i wanted to hang with him more but he ended up hanging with B.R who i hate ><”

so yeah i didn’t see him for the rest of the day

Which brings us to today :)

well i didn’t see him in the morning but he had an exam at the same time as me :)

well i saw him enter later and after the exam and ran to him and jumped on his back

full hug him from behind :)

and then i went in front of him again and hugged him

i asked him to stay with me, until 1pm which was 2 hours away

but he kept saying he needed to go home to study physics

well i full begged and stuff kept hugging him and shit

LOL

and then he was like “ sorry i really can’t, i have to study for my test tomorrow, you know i would of done it any other day but really today i can’t”

i was like FINE and gave him a big hug and said you owe me :P

well ima ask him to walk home with me every thursday

starting next week

idk how long that will last LOL

well i’ma try and walk home every thursday

only if i have someone to walk with LOL

i walked home with my sister today

i reason why i had to stay back

me and her caught up and stuff

it was good

we talked heaps and really deep stuff

i cried at one stage

well idk if i told you

but i REALLY hate my mum

idk she just pisses me off

and i hate her for not treating me right

idk

she thinks of me lowly

and it really annoys me

thats what i was telling my sister

yeah i don’t like my mum

she was also telling me some of the things going on with her

and it was really good

well i miss him now :(

i finished exams finally :D

but i don’t get to see him till monday :(

well i hope he does well tomorrow

GOOD LUCK BESTFRIENDS

i love you babe especially, good luck to you

and good luck to bestfriend KO!!!

A.P (the girl) i love you

i hope you both ace the physics exam :)

i love you

<3

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

<3 this song, at the moment

"Wait For You"
[Verse 1]
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?


[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be


[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.


[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough


[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you


[Bridge]
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do


[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you


I'll Be Waiting.

i love you, cutie pie

i love you more than life itself
i love you more than school
i love you more than facebook
i love you more than maths
i love you more than music
i love you more than cheesecake
i love you more than banana bread
i love you more than food
i love you more than the internet
i love you more than Big Bang Theory
i love you more than How I Met Your Mother
i love you more than tv
i love you more everyday
i love your laugh
i love your smile
i love your smarts
i love your lame jokes
i love your hugs
i love your stupidness
i love your whole life

you are my everything
my life and my heart

you make me corny
you make me cliche
you make me feel stupid
you make me happy
you make me laugh
you make me cry
you make me smile
you make me love you more and more

Without you, i am nothing
Without you, i'll never be enough
Without you, life isn't worth living

i love you bestfriend
with my heart and soul

I LOVE HIM !!

FEAR

i'm scared i'm never gonna find anyone
as special as him
i want to be with him so much
everything seems better, because he makes me happy
i'm scared i'll never be in love with anyone
as much as i am with him right now
he is my life
my everything
i'm scared i'll never accept him,
wanting to just be friends
when we are capable of being more
i love him
with my heart and soul
and with my world
he is the one for me
my hopes and dreams
he is my bestfriend
the love of my life

EVERYTHING GETS BETTER, CAUSE HE MAKES ME HAPPY :)
but what if i can't let go
because i'll love him forever
honey, please see me
for who i am
and for how much i love you
<3

Monday, March 15, 2010

Alrightly :)

Well i had another exam today
only 2 more to go
:):):):)
well i didn't get to sit near him again
but i did see him after the exam
it was good
i gave him a hug and we talked a bit
i'm so in love with him
he makes me happy :)
my bestfriend :):)
<3

Thursday, March 11, 2010

More Exams

I sat next to him in exams :)
i was so surprised cause our last names are separated but we still managed to be next to each other
he smiled at me
and i smiled back
and that made my day
:D
even though i didn't hug him
or talk to him
but i could of sworn that he was looking at me during the exam
or maybe thats just me
well i smiled today
i miss him
i hate exams cause i can't be around him
well i don't see him till monday
and its thursday
sometimes he doesn't act like my bestfriend
why is that?
idk
but i still love him all the same :)

i love you bestfriend
you are such a cutie
<3

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Exams

well i had my first exam today

well i went to school early so i could see him before his exam :)

it was funny

i gave him a hug saying hello

and then he started to panic about his exam

and was like, with his arms out

“ can you give me a hug, i need a hug  for good luck”

i was like nawwwww

and hugged him

well thats the only time i saw him

he went home after his exam

and i stayed back waiting for mine ><”

well it was alright i guess

anyways i better go back and hit the book

<3

Friday, March 5, 2010

Y-day & T-day

Well y-day  he came with me to buy big bang theory, season 2

it was fun

then C.B was like showing us this thing she wanted from Bras N Things and like he got really excited and stuff

well OKAY i got jealous

but i didn’t show i was

anyways

well then today he did the cutest thing

well i went up to him after recess

and then i thought he wanted to go to class so i said bye and like was about to walk away

but then he goes, “awwww hug”

and i found it so cute that i was like “nawwwwww” and hugged him

:) i had a good day

he makes each day worth it  :)

well i don’t get to hang out with him for like 2 weeks cause of exams ><”

thats upsets me

i miss him already

><”

ohs wells

i love you guys

<3

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

GREAT

i seem to have to help with a lot of people’s probs lately

anyways

today was fine

i had a good time at school today

still a bit unmotivated to like study

but i will soon

anyways

i had a funny dream about J.M last night

the boy BTW

he was all depressed

which is funny cause he is never depressed

hahahaha

it was over an asian chick or something

well anyways

i talked to him today

it was fun

i hugged him

and i was like asking him, A.P (girl) and J.M (girl) questions on chemistry LOL

yeah then i saw him after school and i kinda walked with him to the station

half and half cause he seemed to walk off somewhere with his friends

but i still said bye to him

lol

he’s not a good bestfriend sometimes LOL

but i still love him

anyways

A.P’s gf was at the station

grrrrrr i don’t like them fighting

well anyways

that is all

i love you guys

<3

Monday, March 1, 2010

School

can't wait to get out of school LOL
anyways
today was an okay day
i talked to A.C this morning about my ex
cause of the convos i put up
fucking hell why would he come back in my life like that
with that i was also trying to help
A.P and his gf
and i also tried to help L.A with her bf
dealing with so much shit right now
anyways
for lent i gave up all drinks except for water
and like my bestfriend, Him
was suppose to do it with me
but then today i saw him drinking coke GRRRRRRRRR
well i got to slap him
and i did
anyways
we are getting better now
STAYING FRIENDS
well at lunch today i was testing him on Physics
cause he is a nerd like that
and like he full answered them all with such nerdy words LOL
man i love my bestfriend
when there is all this shit in my life
he is the one thing that makes me smile
:)
can't live without him
even if we stay friends forever
as long as he is in my life
<3