Saturday, February 20, 2010



Sometimes i can’t explain how i feel

people just can’t understand ><”

i love you baby boy <3

Always and forever


Thats all for today

i’ll prob write again tomorrow

and post more stuff from tumblr

i love you guys

good night




My friend reblogged this and i found it adorable




I’m in love with him :)

even though we’re “Just Friends”




<33 Him



Music compared to life

there are different  songs that represent moods




-Laughter  & so on

same with life, everyone experiences different emotions

its just a matter of  how you live your life

that determines the emotions



Find a heart that will love you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest.

Hurt me once, shame on you.



this boy….

why can’t i just accept that we’ll never be and move on?

oh yeah, because he keeps doing and saying things that make me hopeful….




Boy Meets World
Cory: Why didn't you call her?
Shawn: Because I don't know what to say to her
Cory: How about "hello"?
Shawn: But it would have come out "Hey I wanna have your babies."




Adventure to find LOVE


To express it




True, sometimes people act strong to hide their weakness

when i’m down there’s no point putting other people down with me

Especially HIM




What is it ?

i don’t know

but i know i wanna be with him FOREVER



1777.) We met in elementary school when we were 9. He crushed on me ever since. He was the first boy ever to give me a love letter. But we separated and went our ways to high school. When I graduated, I asked for his email from a friend of mine.
We started to talk again. I checked my phone a lot for his text messages. We talk on the phone occasionally. Then he asked me out on Valentine’s Day. I was excited, I blushed. I was scared cause my mum is a very strict parent.

But finally I made it for our date. It was only a movie and I had to go home after that but in the cinema I went to hold his hands and he held back. He sought for warmth for his cold hands. I almost wanted to kiss him because feelings developed fast and deep but I didn’t.

Ever since that date I didn’t have the chance to go out with him anymore. Slowly, he stopped texting and calling. I’ve always been the one initiating calls and texts. My heart slowly sank. I noticed the changes but I kept quiet.

It slowly came to an end and we don’t talk anymore. Every morning on the way from college I would think of him. I would think of him when I was in class. I would think of him when I shower. I would think of him and wonder if he ever thought about me. He said he liked me back. He said he still kept the photograph of me that I gave him before we separated when we were 12.

It had only been a couple of months when I found out on his Facebook that he has a
new girlfriend. I cried so bad. I wanted to kick his nuts. I wanted to yell at him. I wanted to punch him. I wanted to do all these things for the sake of my broken heart.

How could he?! He was my first Valentine.

It is fated that we don’t meet each other coincidentally when I’m out. If we do, I would still want to hurt him physically. Cause I know I can’t hurt him emotionally, I can’t hurt his heart like how he did to mine.

I was naive to think maybe we can be something after all these years but I guess people change for the worse.



1764.) Everyone says he's in love with me. Everyone. They're all like "oh you can tell he loves you" or something like that. I can't bare to think that he does. I want him to be my forever. He's my bestfriend. I've loved him through thick and thin. Sad thing is, I don't know if he loves me the same way and every time I think about it, I cry because I know that no matter how hard I try to capture his heart, he'll always be too clueless to understand how much I love him.




Wouldn’t you just wish, someone said that to you?

i know i do ><”

i want him to say it




Just always wanna hear his voice, always just wanna be beside him <3




Can you really love someone else more than you love yourself ?




The Heart & Moments



Gosh, sooo true

Guys i find a lot of good stuff on Tumblr

so i’ll post them here Like cause their cool


Rip my heart out if you want

Fucking hell

today i was suppose to do school work

but ended up editing my music on my comp

ended up deleting the freaking music library

luckily not off my comp


besides that i was okay

except thinking about him ><"

i missed him more that usual today

fucking just wanted to see him

but ended up not

i called like 1000000000 times

most times were no answer

or someone said he wasn't home ><"

yeah i didn't call his mobile

cause why bother when he doesn't carry it around anyways

fuck fuck fuck

i hate him but i LOVE him more

><" why must my feelings for him be so strong

well i feel like shit

and just want to cry

idk why ?!

like i'm not mad at him or anyone

and i'm not really sad

just a bit annoyed at not seeing him

i guess thats why i'm crying idk ><"

well i’ma leave it there

i miss HIM sooo much its killing me


I miss you baby boy

well OBVIOUSLY i miss him TONS
i went to A.C birthday party last night
which was soooo much fun
but towards the end of it
i missed him
i wanted him there with me
i tried calling him twice today
no answer
this was on his home phone
i guess no-one was home
cause i just wanted to spend the day with him
oh well
cause i do miss him LOTS
i'll see him soon
i saw him y-day @ school
and i'll see him Monday @ school
so it should be fine
<3 you babe
bye guys