Sometimes i can’t explain how i feel
people just can’t understand ><”
i love you baby boy <3
Always and forever
Thats all for today
i’ll prob write again tomorrow
and post more stuff from tumblr
i love you guys
Find a heart that will love you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest.
Hurt me once, shame on you.
HURT ME TWICE, SHAME ON ME.
why can’t i just accept that we’ll never be and move on?
oh yeah, because he keeps doing and saying things that make me hopeful….
Boy Meets World
Cory: Why didn't you call her?
Shawn: Because I don't know what to say to her
Cory: How about "hello"?
Shawn: But it would have come out "Hey I wanna have your babies."
1777.) We met in elementary school when we were 9. He crushed on me ever since. He was the first boy ever to give me a love letter. But we separated and went our ways to high school. When I graduated, I asked for his email from a friend of mine.
We started to talk again. I checked my phone a lot for his text messages. We talk on the phone occasionally. Then he asked me out on Valentine’s Day. I was excited, I blushed. I was scared cause my mum is a very strict parent.
But finally I made it for our date. It was only a movie and I had to go home after that but in the cinema I went to hold his hands and he held back. He sought for warmth for his cold hands. I almost wanted to kiss him because feelings developed fast and deep but I didn’t.
Ever since that date I didn’t have the chance to go out with him anymore. Slowly, he stopped texting and calling. I’ve always been the one initiating calls and texts. My heart slowly sank. I noticed the changes but I kept quiet.
It slowly came to an end and we don’t talk anymore. Every morning on the way from college I would think of him. I would think of him when I was in class. I would think of him when I shower. I would think of him and wonder if he ever thought about me. He said he liked me back. He said he still kept the photograph of me that I gave him before we separated when we were 12.
It had only been a couple of months when I found out on his Facebook that he has a
new girlfriend. I cried so bad. I wanted to kick his nuts. I wanted to yell at him. I wanted to punch him. I wanted to do all these things for the sake of my broken heart.
How could he?! He was my first Valentine.
It is fated that we don’t meet each other coincidentally when I’m out. If we do, I would still want to hurt him physically. Cause I know I can’t hurt him emotionally, I can’t hurt his heart like how he did to mine.
I was naive to think maybe we can be something after all these years but I guess people change for the worse.
1764.) Everyone says he's in love with me. Everyone. They're all like "oh you can tell he loves you" or something like that. I can't bare to think that he does. I want him to be my forever. He's my bestfriend. I've loved him through thick and thin. Sad thing is, I don't know if he loves me the same way and every time I think about it, I cry because I know that no matter how hard I try to capture his heart, he'll always be too clueless to understand how much I love him.
today i was suppose to do school work
but ended up editing my music on my comp
ended up deleting the freaking music library
luckily not off my comp
besides that i was okay
except thinking about him ><"
i missed him more that usual today
fucking just wanted to see him
but ended up not
i called like 1000000000 times
most times were no answer
or someone said he wasn't home ><"
yeah i didn't call his mobile
cause why bother when he doesn't carry it around anyways
fuck fuck fuck
i hate him but i LOVE him more
><" why must my feelings for him be so strong
well i feel like shit
and just want to cry
idk why ?!
like i'm not mad at him or anyone
and i'm not really sad
just a bit annoyed at not seeing him
i guess thats why i'm crying idk ><"
well i’ma leave it there
i miss HIM sooo much its killing me