Sunday, March 13, 2011

Just letting it out

i dont know what im feeling
im so hurt by you
i wasnt before but now i am
you never even texted, called, visited or fbed me
randomly like you used to
then you suddenly decide to message me
and make me feel small
and insignificant
you make me feel like a loser
that you telling me what you did
would make me feel better
when it actually made me feel worse
i cant believe you
we were friends
we were more than that
you know how it makes feel to find out
that you visit, call, text and message on fb to other people
but not me
at first i understood
you were busy
i got that
but to find out that you had time for them
and not for me breaks my heart
idk what im feeling right now
but i know i cant deal with this
if you're gonna be the way you are right now
maybe i dont need you
maybe its best this way
i may be gutless right now
by writing about you
but you hurt me
you didnt before
but now you have
and i dont wanna be hurt
especially by you
so maybe i should forget you
and let you go
idk yet
all i know is i'm so effing pissed
im disappointed
i feel like a loser
so thanks for that
thanks for ripping my heart out
and serving it back to me
thanks for being my friend ><"
thanks for hurting me
><"

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

HIM?

Anonymous said...

so i saw your new blog post

and if i remembered you wrote something like time saying

"i had a massive fight with someone important to me
cause of my blog
because of the stuff i said about them
the names i called them
which i know were inappropriate"

yet you did it again, wrote about someone in your blog

i thought you werent gonna do that again but i guess you did

at least maybe next time say it to the person face, so then they know how you feel.