Friday, February 18, 2011

Meeee right now

well after around 5 days of hard work
cleaning and organising my room
i have finally finished
and this is a post long over due
for around a couple of days i have been wondering
simple right ?
i started to remember the first time i heard those words
and the first time i said it back
it was awkward
and quite funny looking back on it now
idk if any of you watch O.C
but my experience is very similar
well more like exactly
like what happened between Marissa and Ryan the first time they said it
the only difference was that the rolls were switched
my ex said it to me first
we were hugging our goodbyes at the end of a school day
and as he held me, he whispered "i love you" in my ears
i was shocked
i didnt know what to do
i didnt know what to say
i was taken by surprise
so you could probably guess what i did
if you watch O.C
i took a pause
went out of his arms
and said "thank you"
and went home.
the whole way home i didnt know what to do
or how to take it
we said it all the time online
but never in person
it was weird
i started to regret not saying it back
as the night came near
and so the first thing the next morning
i went up to him
hugged him
and said "i love you"
its funny like that
we always thought it would be me first
but it was him
i miss that
not that i miss him
just what we had
because i loved him
and our time together
i just want that with someone else

you know right now
i'm not crushing on anyone
and in a way it feels good
but as evident from above
i'm getting by
i still want that coupley feeling
but idk if i want it now
i guess i just gotta wait

i love you readers so much
i feel i can write about anything