Thursday, August 25, 2011

day ... cont

after my last post
i had a talk with my friend
i was really sad
and cried ALOT
and i talked to my cousin on the phone
who helped me get through it
and so now
i feel i cried most of it out
and hopefully for a bit
i'll be a bit more happy
i guess i cant promise it will be
but im gonna try my best

keep yall posted
<3

....

she finally told me guys...
its been 3 days
WOW i had to wait a bit
i think she may have read my post
imagine if she didnt ...
would she even bother to tell me
...
she said sorry
and that im important
but what proof is there so far...
i guess we've been through a lot
and i love her like a sister
but its hard

i guess im real jealous of her
like i said
she was the person who understood me the most
about this kind of thing
but now she sees from a different perspective
so its hard...


anyways
im pretty bummed out right now
cause my sisters and mum
went shopping
WITHOUT ME...
didnt even text me
to see where im at
sometimes its just nice to be included you know
i learnt that i while a go
a lot of people dont get invited to things
because the person holding the event knows they wont go
but its a good feeling
when you are included
even if you know you cant go
i feel really left out
.... sometimes i hate this family

i get to sleep over my cousins house tomorrow
so i get a night away
a great way to end a terrible week
this week really killed me ><"
emotionally ...

well im gonna leave it there
gonna do something to cheer myself up
....
i hope yall are having a better week than me
<3